You thought I was gone, right?
Well, I got hundreds of comments, favs, messages and watches. Thank you. I don't think I'll be able to reply to you all, because it's insane and because of my hectic schedule, but pretend I did it, ok?
I'm here because I think you need to be updated on what's going on with my life.
First of all, let me tell you I'm living a very good and positive period of my life. I'm very happy, having a blast and feeling realized in the job sector and in the artistic world as well. I'm also trying not to listen to the little voice in my head that keeps on asking itself "How long will it last?", even if it's not easy. I've never really had a very long "good" period of my life, so now that I'm happy I'm keeping my fingers crossed, hoping it'll last at least for a while. After the Hell I've been through I think I deserve a little bit of happiness, right?
Ok, let's start by saying that a couple of months ago I got hired from a research and training company here in Naples. The building was two doors away from my boyfriend's job-place so I decided to accept. They pay me well and much to my surprise, my colleagues are wonderful. Sure, work is insane here, but they respect me and my title, they are very hapy of my work and aren't afraid to say it, they're already giving me high responsibility jobs, even if I'm new. It's also a very interesting job I already love, because I get to meet many different people (they work a lot with EU and India, South America etc), read and learn a lot of new things, since they work a lot on the byologic/medical/alimentary field and in the meanwhile, I'm getting paid to do that. Which is always great! ;D
When I had already started here, I got offered a job as freelancer also from a publicity and design company. So since I love doing design and photography, I accepted, so I work for them during weekends. And I get paid.

Then, when I have time and when the project is interesting, I also accept other commissions like photo shootings, cd covers and so on. And I get paid.
Why am I always stating that? Well because not so long ago there were people who said that if I didn't work for free I wouldn't work at all. I'm the living proof that it's not true. I'm not working for free anymore and for no reason. I'm a professional now and I want this to be respected, no matter who's addressing to me. Respect is the word for me now. Oh and because I find it funny that I'm making much more (and believe me... MUCH more) than other "famous" artists here on DA.

I used to think "lucky them", now I just don't care, if you have talent and know how to sell it, you'll find a job you love and get paid well. Again, look at me and learn. Many artists here just sell prints and sometimes do commissions. That's all. Many pageviews and favs won't pay you. I might not sell many prints but I found two jobs (so I get two salaries) and get commissions when I feel like getting them. Ha.
Another news is that with my first salary I bought an original katana, which I already love. It's huge, black and made of iron, wood and of course some textile texture that looks like silk but I have no idea what is it.

I hope I'll be able to use it also for my photos soon.
Then, I'm now also writing for Horror Magazine, the oldest and most famous online magazine about horror in Italy, published from Delos Books. It's funny, I discovered just some weeks ago that one of my colleagues is the editor of Delos, a sci-fi magazine also printed and also sold from Delos Books. When you say fate, eh?

In fact he's helping me a lot because he's a well known journalist and he's great at writing so he encouraged me to start writing for Horror Magazine and here I am. I might also start a project with the magazine about Laurell K. Hamilton and her Anita Blake. I'm a huge fan and since they say I'm great at what I do, we're planning to do something with the Delos Books.

Mmmh what more... another thing that is making me very happy lately is the role play game I opened about a quite old tv-series "The Young Riders". It's the only Italian active rpg about it and people are enthusiast about the way I'm managing it and about the atmosphere in it. The fact is that I love writing, and this one is much more a writing group than a rpg. I prefer quality over quantity and thus every player is accurately selected: I really think that if you make a good selection when they enter, you won't have to regret it later, when they'll start making a mess of the game! We're also preparing a flash website about the game, I did all the design and got complimented from my colleagues and my boss at work. Hehe now I don't want to flaunt about it but it's really a nice one!

I'm trying to get in touch with some of the original actors about some projects, so we'll see what happens...
As if it wasn't enough, yesterday I saw my doctor. And. YAY he said I'm almost done with my asthma meds!! Omg I still can't believe it! We cut off 2 on 3 medicines, and in 3 months from today I might stop also this last one. He said I'm recovering quickly and that in future I won't need any more meds.

So finally I can get rid of the weight I gained because of all the meds I've been forced to take and I might start taking self portraits again. I haven't been taking photos of me because I'm becoming horrid, I feel fat and I'll take photos only if I feel well with myself. Lol here at work there are some colleagues who keep on flirting even if I have a boyfriend. They seem to think I'm very beautiful, which I'm not, but I'll take the compliment.

So, I can do it now. I can improve, I can lose weight, I don't have asthma anymore. What should one want more than that?
So as you can see there's a lot going on. I'm praying it'll last, because I'm very, very happy. I wish you all to be as happy as I am in your life. Believe me, sometimes you see it all pitch black and think that you'll never see the light again. But it will pass. You just keep on walking, chin high, and the darkness will go away. I'll keep on walking as well and if darker times will come, I'll try to hold on to memories of this great period, to remind myself that light exists.
Love and peace to you all
Dany